Today was an eventful day. Nick and Jay come over for lunch. Both Jay and Tom were not quite their selves. Jay didn’t seem to like my daughter. I could even say that seeing her stunned him; he was shocked. Tom, he had been acting suspicious for some time now, but today he appeared to make up his mind about whatever was bothering him, it’s like it all finally fell into place for him. Well, I do not care if he has become certain about the relationship between Gatsby and I. He has his girl up in New York, and I don’t raise my voice about it, so it is just about fair that I have a lover.
Going to New York was rather entertaining, however I cannot say the same about returning home. I’m glad that I got to ride with Gatsby, although I am curious about what they were talking about in the other car. I wish Tom hadn’t made such a fuss in the hotel and that we could’ve stayed more. Though Jay was pretty out of line there, telling Tom that I had never loved him when he doesn’t know anything about my feelings toward Tom and my life with him. He amuses me, the way he believes that everything can just go back to the way they were before.
Driving back home from New York was a scare. Hitting that woman was terrifying. I don’t know if I will ever be able to forget about it. The thing makes this whole situation worse is that the woman looked like she wanted tell me something, something that I will never know, now that she is dead.
I didn’t know how to feel about anything throughout the day, but the more and more I think of it, making up my mind becomes easier. There isn’t even a choice to make, and I don’t regret anything that happened between Jay and I, but that was all temporary, it’s not like I expected it to last. After all Tom is my husband, and we have a life together, a life that I would not want to give up. Maybe we’re not happy, but we’re not unhappy either, and that’s enough for me.
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